The month of November has brought out a roller coaster of feelings. It started on a Monday morning around 4:30 when my mom called and told me my great nephew Jack had a brain tumor. He had sugery the next day. Everything went Great. God is awesome. He was home by Friday. Then there was 2 week and 2 days of waiting to here back if it was cancer or not. On Thursday the 21st we got the worst news it was cancer . We were still waiting on a dr. from John Hopkins to report back with his findings. The last three days have been awful. Today we got the report from John Hopkins and it was atypical meningioma. That means it is not cancer but it is not not cancer it is in between. I don't understand what that means but he doesn't have to have any kind of treatment. God is in Control. We just need to keep praying. BETH!!!!

LIFE- I want to run away

Why does life have to be so hard. When your kids are little they love you. When they get big they seem to hate you. When does it stop. I wish life could be easy but I guess it isn't. You try to be a good mother but everything you do seems to be the wrong thing to do. Somestimes I fill like giving up. I want to run away. Maybe I'm not suppose to be happy. I should have done alot of things different but you can't go back and fix the past. You can only move forward but I am afraid of what the future holds for me. The past 7 or so years haven't been to good. I just want to run away and never look back. BETH :[

Happy Halloween!! Today is Halloween and it has been a good day. I only wish I was able to see and wish my grandbabies a happy halloween. One day I hope that I will be able to.

I went to see Emma and Jack they dressed up like thing 1 and thing 2 and Kristen was the cat in the hat. They were very cute.

I hope everyone had a great day.

UPSET

I am tryi;ng to get a better out look on life. It is really hard . I need to look at the good things in my life not the bad. Saturday we had Savannah's Birthday party. She will be 3 Nov. 3rd. We had a great time. I love the time I get to spend with her. BETH

I know I should put everything in Gods hands but I find it so hard to do. Please Pray for me. BETH

Life at the Beach


We (Me, Phil and Rusty) are starting our second week on the beach. This is the life. You can do nothing and get by with it. I hope this week is as good as last week. Last week part of my family was here. My mom, dad, brother Scott his children Sarah and Spencer one of Sarah's friends Courtney, my brother Conny and his wife Sandy. Conny and Rusty went fishing. Rusty loves to fish with Conny. We played game, went to the beach of course, ate ate and ate some more. The last night me, mom, Phil and Rusty played putt putt. Phil won but I came in second! I really came in 1st because we don't let Phil play with us.
This week Susan and Christine Cleveland and Mel Martin are coming down. I sure we will have a great time.

Today was a good day. I went to see Bryan. He is the sweetest and cutest little boy. He is so happy he smiles all the time. He is very busy little boy and knows he can get anything he wants from his NaNa. I wish he lived closer so I could see him more.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God, and the peace of God which passes all understanding will guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus." ~ Philippians 4:6-7

This verse keeps showing up everywhere these days. God is telling me something. I just have to listen and do what I need to do. I just find it really hard to forget about my problems. I really didn't want to work in vbs this year but I'm glad I did because everyday this week my heart is getting better. My problems are still there but I am turning them over to God. BETH

20 random things about me

1. I was born on April 25,1964 (you do the math)
2.I have been married for 26 years June 5,1982
3.I have 3 boys
4.I have 2 grandchildren
5.The beach is GREAT!!!
6.I would love to travel up the east coast and see lighthouses
7.Don't care to go to Hawaii
8.I work for the Multi Needs Center in Cleveland
9.Getting paid in the summer and NOT WORKING is GREAT!!!!
10.I really don't believe in myself
11.I stay on the computer to much
12 My last child just finished High School!!!!!!!!!YEA but also kind of sad.
13. I miss watching my boys play sports
14. watching a movies is one of my favorite things to do
15. My boys and I use to watch movies together I really miss those times
16. I was a majorette in High School (i'm going way back now)
17. I like all kinds of music (I don't like that screaming crap) I listen to christian and oldies most of the time.
18. Married my High School Sweetheart. I liked him in 8th grade for 2 weeks and then again in 11th
19.All of my grandparents are dead. I miss them so much. I was lucky enough to have them until I was older and all my boys remember them.
20.I have lived in Hayden for 43 of my 44 years.

When I started this I was going to say 50 random things about me but I couldn't think of that many so I stopped at 20

okay

This is my first blog. I really don't know what I'm doing. I don't know if I'm doing this right. This is like LIFE you just try but you really don't know if you are doing it right or not. Most of the time i don't get it right but maybe this time I will.