The month of November has brought out a roller coaster of feelings. It started on a Monday morning around 4:30 when my mom called and told me my great nephew Jack had a brain tumor. He had sugery the next day. Everything went Great. God is awesome. He was home by Friday. Then there was 2 week and 2 days of waiting to here back if it was cancer or not. On Thursday the 21st we got the worst news it was cancer . We were still waiting on a dr. from John Hopkins to report back with his findings. The last three days have been awful. Today we got the report from John Hopkins and it was atypical meningioma. That means it is not cancer but it is not not cancer it is in between. I don't understand what that means but he doesn't have to have any kind of treatment. God is in Control. We just need to keep praying. BETH!!!!

LIFE- I want to run away

Why does life have to be so hard. When your kids are little they love you. When they get big they seem to hate you. When does it stop. I wish life could be easy but I guess it isn't. You try to be a good mother but everything you do seems to be the wrong thing to do. Somestimes I fill like giving up. I want to run away. Maybe I'm not suppose to be happy. I should have done alot of things different but you can't go back and fix the past. You can only move forward but I am afraid of what the future holds for me. The past 7 or so years haven't been to good. I just want to run away and never look back. BETH :[